I have been struggling with drugs and alcohol my whole life, and the past two years of my life have been complete hell. I wont get into it but lets just say life is MUCH better for me these days. I had put together 3 years of sobriety til 2 years ago when I thought, for some reason I could go out with some friends for just one night, then get back on the wagon. Two years later I lost my apartment, my job, my relationship with everyone in my family are gone for going on one year, etc, etc....
I am not mentioning this for any type of accolades or sympothy, only that if I can do it, and someone reads this and needs help or wants to know how I am doing it, am here anytime...just ask a mod for my email and we can talk. My life is a day at a time and with the help of AA, my life is slowly changing for the better. Its amazing to know that I can put my head on my pillow at night, knowing I havent deliberately hurt anyone or endangered someones life by my selfish actions. I am not looking over my shoulder or afraid to see someone that I cant remember what happened the night before that I may have offended.
Its not easy, but worst day sober is better than my best day drinking. Just for today I have been relieved from the obsession to drink or use drugs, and I thank god for that...
god bless,
bsm
