HC if you knew the amount of cocaine I've done in my life you would be shocked. In 2009 I went from 160lbs to 130lbs. I literally did it every other day for a year. This last stint of 7 months I was buying $100-150 5 times a week. I was texting my dealer and asking if we could meet up every time at 6 because that's when he got off work and thinking God I don't want to do this. I would literally have to pull over sometimes on my way to get it just to throw up. My body was craving it and not wanting it at the same time. I'm an addict dude. I'd love to say I'm not trust me, but I would be lying to myself. I just feel I can control it.