Oh yeah, I almost forgot about barman. All my attention was how shebar was doing.
How you holding up with all this Steve? Don't be a pussy and cop out by not telling us your feelings.
Well Dr Phil I gotta tell you.....
Okay here's the straight dope
The approx 50 min ride from Clearwater to Brandon was a pretty good mind bender.
And yesterday afternoon in the hours after we received news that bypass was needed, she was asleep with a good friend bedside while I went out for about a two hour drive to get food and decompress. Got my own son and then my broterh on phone and they helped me vocalize a bit.
Without offering up a boring review of my own personal spiritual understandings, it will suffice to say that these understandings have been my primary source of mental floss during these past five days and certainly going forward.
Bemusing point of reference came Thursday when my mother asked me by phone from Kansas City, "how are YOU doing?"
I honeslty related how I had a truly minor line of thought that was centered on, "what if she is disblaed long term....what if they start chopping her payroll.....will my landlord bitch when i tell her that my temporary not working will defer cash flow & delay rent pymt by about a week......"
But as mentioned, my overwhelming prevalent thinking easily dominated and continues to keep me straight.
So my Mormon mother says, "Well that's the way The Devil works. He wants you to focus on the bad thinki----"
"STOP with The Devil, mother!" I interupted. "If the Devil gets too loud, I will call Santa Claus and he will bring me presents and make it All Better"
Reminded her in friendly tone that I take full responsibility for all of my own thinking. And fortunately, it's mostly straight
And I'll sincerely add that ALL internet forum psts, text messages and phone calls add that extra boost that I can use just in case that Debbil gets too pushy