Im going out of town again for a week like I did last week.
When I come back, im going lower my amount of money risked on my plays.
I cant keep doing what im doing. Im starting to go way beyond my comfort level of % of bankroll. Like I said a few weeks ago, I had to pull out most of my bankroll that I had been building for all these years and only got to put back about 25% into my account.
I have been betting with scared money these last few weeks and its affecting me.
Do I bitch too much about bad beats? YES!!!!!!!!!!!!
The reason for that is simple. I have been going to far above my comfort level and its causing me to 2nd, 3rd, and 4th guess myself. I have gone outside of my system many times lately. I have been too afriad to bet strickly value plays(PLAYS WITH MORE THAN A 50% CHANCE OF LOSING, BUT HAVE VALUE VS THE MONEYLINE) Therefore I have been betting too much chalk and leaving my value plays out of my bets. That has been killing me this year. Im tired of pressing and hoping it gets better. I just have to simply go back to the way I was before, and thats to lower my risk. The bad beats have been hurting me more than they should. I dont have a 50K bankroll anymore. The swings are bothering the shit out of me now.
I used to be able to make my bets and leave for the night and not have to keep up with every pitch of every game, but since the money that I have been risking is out of my comfort zone I have been a prisoner to these games and it has ruled my life the last few weeks.
I have gone against every money management principle that I have been preaching at this forum for over 2 years. You simply cant be succesfull betting with scared money.
Speaking from the heart folks and telling it like it is. I have to get back to the basics. Anytime you treat gambling like the lottery it always comes back to bite you in the ass!!!!!!
Good luck everyone. I will be back next week. I will be betting with much less on the table for now on. SEE YA.