Same, in essence. My own child was born by C-Section, dad wasn't allowed in during that then.
On a separate occasion a female friend ("girlfriend") wanted me present for the birth of her daughter so we perpetrated fraud on the hospital that I was the dad and I was allowed in. I was totally prepared to Pass Out from the witnessing of a Birth, placed pillows behind me to comfort the fall that I considered inevitable. She started getting born. Instead of passing out I was mesmerized. Instead of falling backwards I was leaning forward involuntary because the witnessing of a new Life, a tiny living creature emerging from another human being was incredible beyond an ability to describe.
When she was out she was really tiny and puple-ish colored. Everything about her was really really tiny, she was a miniaturized version of a normal human being. The Nurse asked if I wanted to hold her I said "Hell No!! I'm afraid I would break her" because she looked very very fragile. Nurse said "they're more durable than they look" and plunked her in my arms. Nurse was wearing gloves, when the newborn's skin met my own the first skin on skin contact of this new Life I was overcome with a "feeling" I can't describe but to say it was rock solid evidence of "Divinity"...a Higher Power than ourselves...some thing beyond here, beyond this physical realm. And I spontaneously, and without even a hint of feeling that this was gonna happen, no precursor feeling whatsoever BURST into tears. The deepest type of weeping imaginable but of complete Joy. A feeling I never had before or since. She wasn't even "my own." This experience completely changed my life, totally altered who I "was" and would be thereafter.
Particularly for a person not "in that lane", not "religious" or even especially Spiritual but (in actuality) way more on the Sinner side of the fence than on the side you'd expect to have such an experience and from whom you'd have to take such a story "with a grain of salt" cuz the person experiencing it was already vulnerable to such a thing. That wasn't me. Literally the only things I know for sure about whatever happened there it is that 1). There is no possible way to describe it in words 'cept to say any Acid Trip (by comparison) would only most likely be boring and unrevealing and 2). it was like a "window" to some thing had opened for an "eye that is within the Mind".
Strangely pretty much exactly like what William Blake said: “If the doors of perception were cleansed every thing would appear to man as it is, Infinite.
For man has closed himself up, till he sees all things thro' narrow chinks of his cavern.”
Aldous Huxley’s use of the phrase for his book on hallucinogens "Doors of Perception" (1954) was borrowed from Blake’s work "Marriage of Heaven and Hell" composed between 1790 and 1793.
Then....in 1965, a scraggly haired guy living on the roof of a Venice Beach California Soul Food restaurant needed a name for his Band....
I played HS football with a guy who broke his back Junior year. He hit the weights hard and ended up leading the team in tackles Senior year. Most incredible use of God-given talent I have ever seen. This guy was 5'6" and 150 pounds, but benched like 350 lbs. He was a beast. End of the season banquet rolls around. As they are presenting the Merv Haycock Award (given to senior who displays the most leadership, greatest use of god-given ability, courage, etc) I surely thought it would go to this player. After all, it's who I voted for, he came back from a broken spine for Christ's sake. They called my name, and I was truly the most humbled person in the room. I had no idea that my teammates respected me that much. Sad that my greatest life accomplishment came in the form of a HS football award...
This for me too. Surreal moment. I never cry and for some reason right when she was born I started crying like a big baby lol. It was so weird. Guess it was because my wife had so much trouble getting pregnant. Never forget that moment though, the nurses in the operating room were getting choked up and started crying too. I was like wtf is happening to me haha.
