Im with tang on this one. I thought for sure youd get to your 20k you were thinking you were gonna get to. Im sure it was not your fault and the games you lost were some of the worst beats in the history of sports betting. Its not your fault, you got screwed. Youll make it up next time. Goo get em, were all behind you.
Assuming you're serious, you need to find a new hobby now. You're going to mess up your life, man, and that, simply put, is NOT FUNNY. Don't gamble anymore. Cut your losses now.