Can totally relate SportSavant, I can totally relate. But the expert says, that in reality, those bad beats are very few, and that it seems like it always happens because our minds find it easier to reflect on the negatives rather on the positives that happen to us. We also remember those beats, because they take up and uses way more of our energies and emotions then does, any of our easier victories. A perfect example, I can remember ALL my defeats in my GOM plays which were only two. Yet I have a hard time recalling exactly the details of those GOM games that won easily. I had to go back and check how much they won by, who played who, and what I said in my writeups at that time. Very weird, but very telling about how our minds focus alot on the negatives. I was taught and am still trying to practice how to be become more able to overcome the bad beats and move on quicker, and it is through acceptance that this shit will happen and has happen, or already has happened. So because I have no control of it happening. No sense worring about it anymore. I know easier said than done. Still, I again, can totally relate to your feelings on this matter.
Someone once also told me, that it could be due to the fact that when we win, we are trying to be humble and hold in our composure as no one likes anyone to brag and yell and say I am a winner. But, its ok to bitch and moan and have suicidal tendancies when we lose and everyone is more accepting of this. Very weird, that is why I feel and try to live a balanced life. You win a big one. Hell yell your head off and pat yourself on your back, nothing wrong with that. You did good. Bring balance to your emotions on the positive things that happen to you and not just the negative and I think that you will feel better and it might not affect you that much or even at all. JMO Aloha CC.