You sound depressed.
Tip #1 get to fluck off of the RX
Seriously, this place will depress the shit out of you if you are already in a negative state.
Pick up a crack habit
What ur describing sounds more like very mild depression rather than aging - how old are u?
Late 40's, why?
Didn't you say you were mid 50's in several other threads?
Anyway I recommend exercise daily. You will feel much better