Update......
Wednesday night at 12:01, I smoked a blunt with a girl I know and I totally bogarted it and was passed out in my own bar at 12:45 am. Felt like shit most of yesterday, but came around at about 8pm and changed vices and have been fine since. Slept about 5 hours and just did my first rail of the day and poured my first drink. My office is dead before the holiday weekend and tonight I am taking my second Friday night away from the bar in 2 years and I can not wait. Going out with about 50 of my closest friends.